Nothing really exciting has happend recently except for a meeting today with my psychiatrist over my future & transition itself.
See I've been battling of late to see the relevant people to get me onto HRT & to move on with my life, & today was given the news that this is finally happening.
I should feel over the moon but I don't, I feel empty, hurt, emotional & fearful of my future with another dive into the unknown.
It seems that allnof the hatred of the past has caught up with me, the fear of moving on with a life that I've been denied for so long & the un-imaginable thoughts of being granted freedom for the future.
All this fear & thoughts has had it's toll on me & needless to say dark thoughts are running wild within. I expressed concerns at the time scale that I have to wait now for my appointments & follow up's to get my meds sorted. But in the back of my mind I really don't think it's going to be soon enough.
