I wish I could put into words how I am feeling right now.
Numb doesn't fit the bill nor does sick.
You see yesterday I had the worst news going from my Mum and my thoughts are with her right now until I can get to England to see her.
This is all adding more and more pressure to me and I know that sounds selfish but is true. Playing the waiting game and the treatment that she has to go through is bad enough but if her treatment works or not is the thing that I can't handle.
I'm babbling here but my mind is really in a spin and cannot focus at all.
Anyway I'll leave it there for now
Thursday 25 March 2010
Thursday 4 March 2010
The final sunset
As the sun nestles itself between the trees, bringing a radiant glow to the symphony of trees that for the past six months I have been an audience to, I say my final farewells.
For tomorrow I venture on up the road to pastures new. I remaniss the times had here both good and bad and remeber the wonderful friendships that have blossomed.
Such friendships carry through for the rest of my life and into my journey and beyond.
I remember the times of pain and suffering and how this all came to be, the fight for freedom was to liberate myself from my inner demons.
Alass, I shall not be leaving this wonderful place as the ghoust of my menories linger on.
Six months on and I've learned so much of lifes trails and woes. I have conquored my fears and reached the highest point of where I wanted to climb. Althought the climb was not without it's challenges, I stand up high and look out at the view I have and shout rejoice from the top of my voice.
For tonight we live and love in peace.
I kinda got a bit sentimental and thought of this as I was walking the doglets around the field.
The last few days have seen many changes as my little saviour and close friend has too moved onto pastures new. Vindi, my little bull calf went to auction yesterday and last night I had a tear in my eye. A tear of sorrow and of joy as I hope he does well too in his new life. Tomorrow I head a long way up the road. Ok it's only just up the road about 4km to my cottage that is going to be my permanent home and little sense of tranquility.
For tomorrow I venture on up the road to pastures new. I remaniss the times had here both good and bad and remeber the wonderful friendships that have blossomed.
Such friendships carry through for the rest of my life and into my journey and beyond.
I remember the times of pain and suffering and how this all came to be, the fight for freedom was to liberate myself from my inner demons.
Alass, I shall not be leaving this wonderful place as the ghoust of my menories linger on.
Six months on and I've learned so much of lifes trails and woes. I have conquored my fears and reached the highest point of where I wanted to climb. Althought the climb was not without it's challenges, I stand up high and look out at the view I have and shout rejoice from the top of my voice.
For tonight we live and love in peace.
I kinda got a bit sentimental and thought of this as I was walking the doglets around the field.
The last few days have seen many changes as my little saviour and close friend has too moved onto pastures new. Vindi, my little bull calf went to auction yesterday and last night I had a tear in my eye. A tear of sorrow and of joy as I hope he does well too in his new life. Tomorrow I head a long way up the road. Ok it's only just up the road about 4km to my cottage that is going to be my permanent home and little sense of tranquility.
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