I have been through the mill again recently with another serious attempt on my life resulting in more setbacks & hospital stays.
This time it was a big hit to my progress and still needs alot of work to rebuild what has been done.
The start of December brought news that my psychiatrist had finally made contact with the specialist I need to see and is pressing for funding to get me there.
This being another milestone & a step closer to my dream had no effect on me what-so-ever as I sat there being given the news. I can't integrate into society & walking down the road is hard enough for me right now.
I still get times where I feel that I would be better off dead but remain in hope that I can once again find that little glimmer of happiness I had a few months back.
My days now consist of medicating & sleeping as one of my tablets knocks me for six. I feel the need to be doped right now as time should heal a somewhat emotional wreck.
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