The dark ages

As much as I am trying to get my life back on track, I still find myself cast into the dark ages when it comes to communication with the outside world. As I never watch television or read a newspaper I tend to forget what is happening in the outside world and conversation with mortal people can become boring :( I also have recently found myself so wrapped up within my own feelings that this becomes a topical conversation whenever I am out amongst friends. Well now I am living in a place where very few people recognise me having such a condition and I am not in the process at the moment of divulging who and what I really am, I try to socialise as much as I possibly can and in a capacity that I can handle.
Last night I went out to get some food and as it was a bit late decided on a quick drink across the road in the pub. Again I have the once over from another bar maid that had never met me before but as the locals started speaking to me these stares become smiles and quite relaxed.
It's strange though how previously I would get all paranoid over such events as if they were trying to suss me out and that paranoia would lead to me fidgeting. Now though I don't really care. I can imagine that most take me on face value and there are others that have read deeper knowing I am different to most natal males. The feeling I used to get by people distancing themselves is long gone. It is for this little boost of confidence in me that I feel makes a different person within.

I am interested that when the time comes and I get a little more known, I might start to open up about the changes that are taking place within myself and the eventual changes to my specifics that I am so longing to loose ;)