Yesterday was confirmed to my departure from here. I will be on the move as of next week and now can start to get my life sorted out making dreams into a reality.
Well to be honest, it is my worst nightmare coming true and the changes that I am making I feel now complelled to do. Most think of this as an attentions seeking thing but it is more of a harsh reality check on what has gone on inmy mind throughout my life. I cannot quite believe that this is now happening right now and kinda knew that 2008 was going to be the year that it happened. Not quite what I had in mind though making such major changes to my life.
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Dear Katy
I just wanted to wish you good luck on your journey. I hope the changes you need to make to your life are everything you wish for. You can face your fears & live your dreams. With all you have been through, you so deserve to be happy.
I think it is a journey that we all don't want to happen but somehow it does. I have come to accept that these last few months and echo your message. Sounds like you have been through a lot too.
xxxx
Dear Katy
I agree with you. No one in their right mind would chose to transition if there was any other option. I never thought I would need to, as much as I often wished I could. Something deep inside when you are at your lowest point, God willing, pulls you back from the edge. Only at that point did I truly accept I needed to do this. Our lives are so precious. As we face each challange we can gain strength from them, what ever the outcome. You grow as a person. My friend s have kindly said how courageous I am to be transitioning & having surgeries etc. I am a complete coward & certainly not brave. I guess the brave bit is trying to survive as long as we have in turmoil trapped in the wrong body. We are now seeking the only cure we can find for our gender dysphoria which for me has come to dominate my every thought. Transitioning is not a miracle cure but I am now so much happier as I believe it is finally going to happen. I am really excited but also quite scared. I have no plan "B". This simply has to work if you understand what I mean. Transitioning is probably only going to swap one lot of problems for another but we are being true to ourselves. I could no longer live a lie. Following our hearts is our destiny.
It is not a race. It has to be done only when you are ready & even then there are understandable doubts.
The tragic situation with dear Alina today on Angels is very heartbreaking. There but for the grace of God. I just hope she will be ok. I thought the support shown by some of our friends there was amazing. I hope you can keep in touch with us there. We are not alone on this journey.
Take care.
Good luck my friend.
Love
Debbie
I couldn't agree more with you Debbie. I have got the strength now to fight on. In the past I really felt about how people would see me if I told them but that really does not matter to me now. I cannot continue to live a lie.
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